My goals last week were to incorporate song & to hone routines. I've had many chances to practice this because my teacher was gone Monday and Tuesday. I enjoyed the time with the kids so much, and they were very well behaved. I even taught them a few things I learned from my first placement and they loved them : put a bubble in, and help your neighbor.
One of the goals I want to continue this week is to be in prayer for my cooperating teacher. I felt a check in my own spirit because when I'm stressed and anxious, or thinking of needs of my friends, it's so much easier to pray for myself, and people I love. This week I felt god kind of leading me to pray for this teacher. I can honestly say its a different perspective, and I've seen results from it which may seem small but let's me know this is how it should be. Her disposition has been more kind and encouraging toward me and I appreciate it so much. I totally attribute it to God. I am so thankful that he's walking me through this experience. I couldn't do it on my own, that's for sure.
One word to describe my week would be trust. I feel things getting a little easier, and I'm feeling more of myself coming out. I didn't realize how regimented and anxious I'd become until I started feeling myself relax and enjoy what I'm doing. I want to remember that my trust in god and giving up on my own efforts is what got me here. I'm just praying I don't start trying to do it on my own again, because his Word is what's been giving me peace and any confidence I have in this growing time.
One of the prompts asked if there were any similarities between the first and second placements. I have seen a lot of differences and similarities. I think there's more room to be creative with the curriculum and how it gets taught at my First placement. I think that lent to more time needed for planning, but that's one of the things I love. Spending all that time, and putting everything into it, and creating lessons that are meaningful and engaging. On the other hand, it's nice to not have all that work far into the evening. I've been benefitted by having more free time in my second placement. One thing I miss from the first placement is the focus on no bullying. They try in my 2nd placement, but I feel like the approach is different and I think kids will respond better over time o the 1st placement's methods. That's just my opinion.
I know of several things I will steal from both teachers. That's their behavior techniques, some of their organizational aids, and a more laid back attitude that I've seen modeled by both of them.
I think my cooperating teacher is a great example of a teacher-leader. She is someone that many teachers go to because she's very organized and take charge. She handles things and organizes them for many teachers at different grade levels. This week she also overheard another teacher having a rough morning, and asked the teacher if she wanted to step out for a second. Her compassion and reliability make her someone that I think the other teachers on her team look to for help/input.
My supervisor should know I pretty much taught Wednesday and Thursday full day at the teachers request as well. I showed up and the teacher said she wanted to see how I was after two days alone with the kids. So I literally had 10 mins to look over all plans for the day (thank god it was a half day) and then start the day with them. I know it sounds crazy but I was able to do it, with confidence, and then when I got there the next day she asked me to do the same thing. She said she thought I'd done a great job and so she thought I should do it again. Ha! I had no planning time, but was able to look at the order of what was being taught, and use what I had to think on my feet. At the end she told me I'd done a great job, which was nice to hear.
This week Ill be starting my take over. There will be a few days where she introduces guided reading & touch math but I'll be full time other than that.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Week 7
My goals from last week were to plan in advance and to incorporate song. I was able to accomplish both, and this week I'll still be trying to continue incorporating song/music. My goals for this week are to hone the routines that my teacher uses to teach reading. I feel like they're very effective and I'd like to continue them. I have time to practice these routines because I'll be teaching all day Monday and Tuesday. My cooperating teacher will be at a conference both days.
One word I would use to describe this week would be expectations. I feel I've had to adjust my expectations. I've been so blessed in the past to work with people who have become friends. I think the one thing that's good about working with someone who's simply a colleaugue is that I pretty much am left on my own to figure things out myself. I've enjoyed learning from teachers and gleaning whatever I can from their experience. Being left on my own and without support allows me to see what I bring to the table. I think more of who I am comes out, as opposed to me modeling someone else's strategies.
The best part of my week was when me & my cooperating teacher accidentally taught a lesson together. She had to leave the room right when she was going to start a Social Studies lesson. I could sense she was not putting a lot of faith in my teaching abilities. It'd been a rough start. She asked me if I could just start reading the story in the book with the kids. She walked out and I started to find the page and started questioning the kids about the title, the pictures they saw on the page, and then started reading with them. She walked in at the tail end of my questioning. When I finished reading the first page, she started interjecting with her lesson. She was smiling and nodded to me to continue. I stopped in the middle to point out something we'd been talking about that had been confirmed in the book. She was still smiling in the back. Anyway, she started talking again and then a teacher came in the room and interrupted her. They continued talking, so I called the kids attention and finished up the lesson. It was an awesome moment because I felt that moment was from God. I was able to completely think on my feet, and I felt that I had gained a little credibility with my cooperating teacher. I'm thankful that this happened because I felt like my gifts were activated, and Ir ealized that I could do this. I learned that so many times my weakness is worry and I tend to overanalyze and make things more complicated than they are. This lesson was spur of the moment, yet it was meaningful, standards based, and helped me to feel that this is definitely something I enjoy doing!
I haven't had time to collaborate with colleagues yet. We were supposed to have a first grade meeting on Friday, but it got cancelled because the principal was dealing with some private concerns. I feel like collaboration is definitely essential. It is by no means a time waster. For myself, sometimes I've had the best ideas or creativity spark from building on other's contributions and shared experiences.
I haven't had any personal parental interactions. I've witnessed the interactions my cooperating teacher has with her parents. I'll be participating in the school's conferences both days on Nov 5, 6 so I should be able to see the kinds of concerns that come up. I think the relationship a teacher has with the parents is crucial. I think clear expectations and mutual respect are important.
I don't really need feedback or advice right now. Just continued prayers. November is pretty much my full time month, and I'm excited. I had a moment with the kids on Friday where I got my teacher voice back. I've been so impacted by fear and anxiety, and I've found that if I'm teaching a new skill the kids need my support and confidence to feel confident. I was up teaching a math skill, saw some eyes glazing over, and I switched the tone of my voice to add more rises and falls, and their faces started to light up. I have to remember, my acting skills and tone of voice need to be things I pay closer attention to.
One word I would use to describe this week would be expectations. I feel I've had to adjust my expectations. I've been so blessed in the past to work with people who have become friends. I think the one thing that's good about working with someone who's simply a colleaugue is that I pretty much am left on my own to figure things out myself. I've enjoyed learning from teachers and gleaning whatever I can from their experience. Being left on my own and without support allows me to see what I bring to the table. I think more of who I am comes out, as opposed to me modeling someone else's strategies.
The best part of my week was when me & my cooperating teacher accidentally taught a lesson together. She had to leave the room right when she was going to start a Social Studies lesson. I could sense she was not putting a lot of faith in my teaching abilities. It'd been a rough start. She asked me if I could just start reading the story in the book with the kids. She walked out and I started to find the page and started questioning the kids about the title, the pictures they saw on the page, and then started reading with them. She walked in at the tail end of my questioning. When I finished reading the first page, she started interjecting with her lesson. She was smiling and nodded to me to continue. I stopped in the middle to point out something we'd been talking about that had been confirmed in the book. She was still smiling in the back. Anyway, she started talking again and then a teacher came in the room and interrupted her. They continued talking, so I called the kids attention and finished up the lesson. It was an awesome moment because I felt that moment was from God. I was able to completely think on my feet, and I felt that I had gained a little credibility with my cooperating teacher. I'm thankful that this happened because I felt like my gifts were activated, and Ir ealized that I could do this. I learned that so many times my weakness is worry and I tend to overanalyze and make things more complicated than they are. This lesson was spur of the moment, yet it was meaningful, standards based, and helped me to feel that this is definitely something I enjoy doing!
I haven't had time to collaborate with colleagues yet. We were supposed to have a first grade meeting on Friday, but it got cancelled because the principal was dealing with some private concerns. I feel like collaboration is definitely essential. It is by no means a time waster. For myself, sometimes I've had the best ideas or creativity spark from building on other's contributions and shared experiences.
I haven't had any personal parental interactions. I've witnessed the interactions my cooperating teacher has with her parents. I'll be participating in the school's conferences both days on Nov 5, 6 so I should be able to see the kinds of concerns that come up. I think the relationship a teacher has with the parents is crucial. I think clear expectations and mutual respect are important.
I don't really need feedback or advice right now. Just continued prayers. November is pretty much my full time month, and I'm excited. I had a moment with the kids on Friday where I got my teacher voice back. I've been so impacted by fear and anxiety, and I've found that if I'm teaching a new skill the kids need my support and confidence to feel confident. I was up teaching a math skill, saw some eyes glazing over, and I switched the tone of my voice to add more rises and falls, and their faces started to light up. I have to remember, my acting skills and tone of voice need to be things I pay closer attention to.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Week 6
The goal I had for my first week at my second teaching placement was to observe and document all the forms of classroom management that the teacher implements. I also observed her routines, and tried to compile a list so that I'll be able to remember everything that is required to be done in the mornings before the day even begins.
My goals for this week are to have my Trinity lesson plans done a few days before the lesson I'm actually teaching. I have been struggling with this, and I feel that if I think it through thoroughly and in advance, I'll feel more confident about what I'm doing. I also plan on finding ways to incorporate song into whatever lesson I'm doing this week. If there's something I like to do it's singing. I want the kids to know that about me, and start to look forward to how I will incorporate it into our learning in a constructive way. I think this will be something great for this grade level.
To try and describe last week within one word is impossible for me. I experienced the dumps, lack of motivation, fear of failure, and just plain sadness about leaving my last teaching placement. I was in a place where I felt was my ideal teaching environment, and I felt challenged and intrinsically rewarded with the depth of the lessons I was teaching and observing. First grade lessons are definitely simpler and I was feeling a little let down. After the 1st two days, I felt that my attitude needed to change, because it would not be helpful to me. I felt like I needed to make a greater effort to get to know the kids, and to communicate more effectively with my cooperating teacher. By Friday, even with this decision made, I was still very emotional and feeling like I was about to just breakdown. I found time in my early morning devotions to write down a verse in James 1:2-5 that I felt God reveal to me.
"Count it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything..." The verse goes on, but I felt this in my heart. I kept praying for God to help me, change me, etc. and then all these obstacles and doubts were coming up. I was looking at the trials & tests of my faith in the wrong perspective. I've been beating myself up, feeling like where is God? And this verse clearly showed me that because of all the stress and testing I'd been experiencing, that is my assurance that God is with me and he is helping to change me. This may seem so small, but I grasped onto this verse and memorized it by the end of Friday. (I wrote it on a post-it note and stuck it on my binder and had the page open on the back table all day. I'd go back and recite it to myself whenever I was at the back table). It was my strength all day long. And to be honest by the end of the day, the dumps were gone and I felt joyful. I was even able to share that experience with one of my friends from my cohort who is placed at the same school. I'm telling you, it was a turn around. So, that's also a goal, I'm going to have a verse of the week sitting in my binder every day, and I'm going to memorize and hold onto it throughout the day. I think my cooperating teacher came by and saw it, and I'm glad. It's a good thing.
I think the number one takeaway I have from my entire student teaching experience right now is how much I need to have a system that reinforces the expectations I'm going to set up. I need to have a plan for students to be able to know clearly what their expectations are. When they know their boundaries and limits, that the place we'll be working in will be safe, respectful, and ordered, I think that's the foundation upon which all learning will take place. The other takeaway for me is how much I need to rely on God for everything. I know I have gifts and abilities, but at the end of the day I just don't have the same joy as when I completely rely on God and his word to be my strength throughout the day. It allows me to see the children I teach in a different light, it allows me to view fellow teachers in a different light.
My thoughts on prompt 1: (the teacher should use the results of each test system to assess for student learning and, if necessary, remediate and correct for student mastery.)
I think this is correct. If possible, some students need to be retaught if they clearly didn't understand. I would probably assess whether or not the test medium was appropriate by maybe verbally asking students the questions they didn't understand. Depending on the type of error, whether an error in understanding the directions or a total lack of comprehension of the topic, then I would know how best to move forward.
My thoughts on prompt 2: (the students should be graded on a percentage system. This way they're competing against themselves to reach a level of success.) I think that it might be a good thing to let them compete against themselves. I definitely don't like to see them competing against each other. That would lead to a lot of negativity. This system may be more positively motivating.
I have remediated with groups based on my assessment of their work turned in. On two days that I was teaching my TPA lessons, I found that several students were struggling with the concept. The first remediation day I did a read aloud and guided practice with modeling of how to do the activity. This helped those students. The next day I met with small groups who were still having trouble and worked with them to help each other through guided practice to comprehend the reading strategy.
I think that tracking has its positives and negatives, and I'm not really sure I have a complete opinion one way or another about it at this point. I'd have to live it myself and see the results with students I know before I give an answer to this question.
I don't need feedback on anything right now. One thing that I wish was different was that I only needed to teach 3 more weeks instead of 4. I realize I'll be getting more experience and that's great, but literally everyone else in my cohort will only teach for 5 full weeks. Because I chose split placement they added a week for some reason, and I just found out that I'm scheduled to teach 6 full weeks overall.
Honestly, I'm grateful for all the growing experiences. I mean, I keep learning a lot about myself. It's a good thing. But I'd like to be done with the stress as soon as possible. I think it's a perfectly normal concern and so when I see when my 2nd placement teacher wants me to start teaching Oct 29 - Dec 7, that's another added week onto my schedule. I'd like to know how to bring it up with her in a way that's tactful. Who knows how I'll feel Dec 7, maybe I'll be so gung ho and won't want to give it back, but I may feel the reverse. I want to address this before any more time passes.
So, here's the concern. I'm already doing an extra week of teaching than my cohort. Two extra weeks is a stretch for me. I need help with how to tell her that I will be happy to give her class back to her after 20 days. Twenty days, which adds to five weeks, will be plenty of time for me. The first graders are adorable, but I'll be ready to start observing. There are so many different pullout, special ed, reading specialist, etc. classrooms in that school that I want to see.
My goals for this week are to have my Trinity lesson plans done a few days before the lesson I'm actually teaching. I have been struggling with this, and I feel that if I think it through thoroughly and in advance, I'll feel more confident about what I'm doing. I also plan on finding ways to incorporate song into whatever lesson I'm doing this week. If there's something I like to do it's singing. I want the kids to know that about me, and start to look forward to how I will incorporate it into our learning in a constructive way. I think this will be something great for this grade level.
To try and describe last week within one word is impossible for me. I experienced the dumps, lack of motivation, fear of failure, and just plain sadness about leaving my last teaching placement. I was in a place where I felt was my ideal teaching environment, and I felt challenged and intrinsically rewarded with the depth of the lessons I was teaching and observing. First grade lessons are definitely simpler and I was feeling a little let down. After the 1st two days, I felt that my attitude needed to change, because it would not be helpful to me. I felt like I needed to make a greater effort to get to know the kids, and to communicate more effectively with my cooperating teacher. By Friday, even with this decision made, I was still very emotional and feeling like I was about to just breakdown. I found time in my early morning devotions to write down a verse in James 1:2-5 that I felt God reveal to me.
"Count it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything..." The verse goes on, but I felt this in my heart. I kept praying for God to help me, change me, etc. and then all these obstacles and doubts were coming up. I was looking at the trials & tests of my faith in the wrong perspective. I've been beating myself up, feeling like where is God? And this verse clearly showed me that because of all the stress and testing I'd been experiencing, that is my assurance that God is with me and he is helping to change me. This may seem so small, but I grasped onto this verse and memorized it by the end of Friday. (I wrote it on a post-it note and stuck it on my binder and had the page open on the back table all day. I'd go back and recite it to myself whenever I was at the back table). It was my strength all day long. And to be honest by the end of the day, the dumps were gone and I felt joyful. I was even able to share that experience with one of my friends from my cohort who is placed at the same school. I'm telling you, it was a turn around. So, that's also a goal, I'm going to have a verse of the week sitting in my binder every day, and I'm going to memorize and hold onto it throughout the day. I think my cooperating teacher came by and saw it, and I'm glad. It's a good thing.
I think the number one takeaway I have from my entire student teaching experience right now is how much I need to have a system that reinforces the expectations I'm going to set up. I need to have a plan for students to be able to know clearly what their expectations are. When they know their boundaries and limits, that the place we'll be working in will be safe, respectful, and ordered, I think that's the foundation upon which all learning will take place. The other takeaway for me is how much I need to rely on God for everything. I know I have gifts and abilities, but at the end of the day I just don't have the same joy as when I completely rely on God and his word to be my strength throughout the day. It allows me to see the children I teach in a different light, it allows me to view fellow teachers in a different light.
My thoughts on prompt 1: (the teacher should use the results of each test system to assess for student learning and, if necessary, remediate and correct for student mastery.)
I think this is correct. If possible, some students need to be retaught if they clearly didn't understand. I would probably assess whether or not the test medium was appropriate by maybe verbally asking students the questions they didn't understand. Depending on the type of error, whether an error in understanding the directions or a total lack of comprehension of the topic, then I would know how best to move forward.
My thoughts on prompt 2: (the students should be graded on a percentage system. This way they're competing against themselves to reach a level of success.) I think that it might be a good thing to let them compete against themselves. I definitely don't like to see them competing against each other. That would lead to a lot of negativity. This system may be more positively motivating.
I have remediated with groups based on my assessment of their work turned in. On two days that I was teaching my TPA lessons, I found that several students were struggling with the concept. The first remediation day I did a read aloud and guided practice with modeling of how to do the activity. This helped those students. The next day I met with small groups who were still having trouble and worked with them to help each other through guided practice to comprehend the reading strategy.
I think that tracking has its positives and negatives, and I'm not really sure I have a complete opinion one way or another about it at this point. I'd have to live it myself and see the results with students I know before I give an answer to this question.
I don't need feedback on anything right now. One thing that I wish was different was that I only needed to teach 3 more weeks instead of 4. I realize I'll be getting more experience and that's great, but literally everyone else in my cohort will only teach for 5 full weeks. Because I chose split placement they added a week for some reason, and I just found out that I'm scheduled to teach 6 full weeks overall.
Honestly, I'm grateful for all the growing experiences. I mean, I keep learning a lot about myself. It's a good thing. But I'd like to be done with the stress as soon as possible. I think it's a perfectly normal concern and so when I see when my 2nd placement teacher wants me to start teaching Oct 29 - Dec 7, that's another added week onto my schedule. I'd like to know how to bring it up with her in a way that's tactful. Who knows how I'll feel Dec 7, maybe I'll be so gung ho and won't want to give it back, but I may feel the reverse. I want to address this before any more time passes.
So, here's the concern. I'm already doing an extra week of teaching than my cohort. Two extra weeks is a stretch for me. I need help with how to tell her that I will be happy to give her class back to her after 20 days. Twenty days, which adds to five weeks, will be plenty of time for me. The first graders are adorable, but I'll be ready to start observing. There are so many different pullout, special ed, reading specialist, etc. classrooms in that school that I want to see.
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